Mental Health
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(un)Natural Disaster
If there’s one thing my mind is for sure, it’s a natural disaster. Striking, terrifying, weirdly beautiful if you know what to look for but always with a looming threat of death, and as unpredictable as they come. Continue reading
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All In a Day’s Work
Progress is a rollercoaster that goes in every direction but the expected one until the word “expectations” has lost all its meaning and all I am left with is me doing my best. Continue reading
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When Everything Is Not Okay
To be ok right now would require a loss of my humanity that I am not prepared to lose. Continue reading
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Is It Time to Stop Caring Yet?
It’s not over. Sometimes you just need to take a break. Continue reading
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Birthday Thoughts of an Unorganized Mind
A part of me died that day, but another part was born the next. I still haven’t quite wrapped my mind around it all. All the things that have happened. All the painful pieces of the story that led me to where I am today. Continue reading
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That Ubud Feeling
It was on that late-night drive from Ngurah Rai International Airport back to my second-story room in a little Balinese bungalow in Ubud, as the taxi pulled onto my now familiar street, that I first had the absolutely beautiful and breath-catching feeling of coming home. Continue reading
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Pushing Through:
Sometimes continuing a poem does not add value. Sometimes, it detracts. It’s helpful to have the wisdom to make the distinction. I am ok with people not understanding what I mean. Continue reading
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The Effects of Rats on Mental Health: A Very Scientific Article
For me, my rats have been a tremendous source of joy and purpose at times when I didn’t feel I had anything else. They made it onto every self-soothe list I’ve ever created in my years of DBT therapy. Pet a rat. Play with my rats. If not home, look at photos of my rats.… Continue reading
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Oreo: Saved by a Rat
“Hey, can you take a baby rat?” I looked at the Petland employee. “Someone left a bunch of orphaned babies outside, there’s only one left, take it and it might live, otherwise it’s either snake food or will die without a mom.” I thought for a second. He let me hold her. She was the… Continue reading
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It’s the Little Things
I like to know things. I like to know the plan. I get upset when the plan changes. Not because I am actually and logically upset, but because my brain just literally needs time to get used to a change in information. I expected one thing, and I’m getting another. It’s not bad, it’s different.… Continue reading
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