life
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Bits and Pieces
One hundred unfinished poems Three hundred unfinished stories Infinity, unstarted How do I finish something before I’ve begun? Continue reading
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On Regret:
I don’t know why my brain is the way that it is, but I do know it well enough by now to know that it simply is. And I can get on board with the way that I work, or I can spend my lifetime fighting myself. Continue reading
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When Everything Is Okay
Just write. Write badly. Write everything and anything that comes to mind. Maybe somewhere inside that will come the beauty. We miss 100% of the chances we do not take. Continue reading
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To Fly Again
The last thing I wanted to do today was witness death. The thought filled me with all kinds of sadness. There was nothing I could realistically do. “Just please be ok, little bird.” Continue reading
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Pushing Through:
Sometimes continuing a poem does not add value. Sometimes, it detracts. It’s helpful to have the wisdom to make the distinction. I am ok with people not understanding what I mean. Continue reading
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The Effects of Rats on Mental Health: A Very Scientific Article
For me, my rats have been a tremendous source of joy and purpose at times when I didn’t feel I had anything else. They made it onto every self-soothe list I’ve ever created in my years of DBT therapy. Pet a rat. Play with my rats. If not home, look at photos of my rats.… Continue reading
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Oreo: Saved by a Rat
“Hey, can you take a baby rat?” I looked at the Petland employee. “Someone left a bunch of orphaned babies outside, there’s only one left, take it and it might live, otherwise it’s either snake food or will die without a mom.” I thought for a second. He let me hold her. She was the… Continue reading
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It’s the Little Things
I like to know things. I like to know the plan. I get upset when the plan changes. Not because I am actually and logically upset, but because my brain just literally needs time to get used to a change in information. I expected one thing, and I’m getting another. It’s not bad, it’s different.… Continue reading
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Procrastinate but Persevere
The more we try at things, the more we fail. The more we try at things, the more we succeed. A whole is only as big as the sum of its parts. Continue reading
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When Words Disappear
I watch myself give up on expressing myself time after time because the effort it takes to do so is enormous both mentally and physically. … sometimes I get sad for a while, wishing I could somehow share what’s on my mind. But for better or worse, it passes. And time moves on. Continue reading
I can I know 