My Journey
From Brooklyn, NY to Southeast Asia
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Oreo: Saved by a Rat
“Hey, can you take a baby rat?” I looked at the Petland employee. “Someone left a bunch of orphaned babies outside, there’s only one left, take it and it might live, otherwise it’s either snake food or will die without a mom.” I thought for a second. He let me hold her. She was the… Continue reading
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It’s the Little Things
I like to know things. I like to know the plan. I get upset when the plan changes. Not because I am actually and logically upset, but because my brain just literally needs time to get used to a change in information. I expected one thing, and I’m getting another. It’s not bad, it’s different.… Continue reading
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Alive and Free
Mistakes don’t erase your progress, and progress doesn’t mean no mistakes. It’s the way that I’ve learned to step away from all or nothing thinking and to keep pushing towards my goals. Perfection, streaks, and counting days be damned. Continue reading
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Life Is for Living:
A Collection of Poems Written from the Psych Ward in March of 2021; Continue reading
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33 and counting
September is National Suicide Prevention Month. Before my 20th birthday, I promised myself that I would not live to see my 30th. At the time, it felt like something way out in the distance, almost unreal. I didn’t quite grasp the significance of creating this time limit on my life, a deadline if you will. Continue reading
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Chaotic Calm
I come here, and my emotions are calm against the rhythmic chaos of the sea, the waves in my mind are no match for the waves of the ocean. I breathe, and the beach washes over me, inside me, through me, all my senses on max,, somehow, it feels right. have you tried turning it… Continue reading
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Walking on Sand
I landed in Koh Samui with all of my luggage and all of my anxiety. A driver holding a sign with my name on it was waiting at the airport to take me to my new home on the beach. The plan was to stay here for a month. I’ve never been a huge fan Continue reading
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Pai, Thailand
The car ride from Chiang Mai to Pai was a long and dizzying three-hour ordeal during which, at any given point, I was certain I was either about to die or to vomit. The road twisted and turned, went up and down, and was often extremely close to the edges of cliffs. It was also Continue reading
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The Adventure Begins
Good things take time. I left New York in September of 2022 with a roundtrip ticket to Chiang Mai, Thailand. 30 days, I told myself, I can do 30 days. 2 weeks before I left, I had a full-on nervous breakdown in the back of my boss’s car late one night. What am I doing?? Continue reading
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Waking up
Waking up in Ubud, Bali is not the same as waking up in Brooklyn, New York.It’s 6 a.m. and the sun is rising, peeking out in shining rays behind the coconut palms.I throw open my curtains, letting it all in, the contrast is startling, each day anew.The tiny colorful singing birds, orange and yellow and Continue reading
I can I know 